I wonder how, I wonder why
June 25th, 2009 § 4 Comments
Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky and All that I can is just a yellow lemon tree..
Its funny how, while sitting in a conference room discussing various pros n cons of certain approach, you just get gripped with a feeling of loss or sadness…
Totally random thought
Well.. not so random, maybe it’s related to weird behavior I display these days. I just spent a whole day laughing hysterically over nothing and everything, then ending up in tears each time. My friends have already started thinking of me as that Crazy Lady.
I so need a vacation.. Anyone willing to sponsor me to a week in Barcelona???
Coming out to an Indian Mom
June 22nd, 2009 § 6 Comments
Last night over drinks, wallowing in our sadness, we wondered about coming out to your parents. Esp if you are a girl. Think of it, for someone who won’t even mention existence of sex, how will you explain that you don’t like it straight?
Here’s how I see this conversation happening:
Mom: “I saw Mrs. X today. Her sister-in-law’s brother’s boss knows this family who have an eligible son. He’s IIT-IIM working in MNC. They think you are perfect for him.”
Girl: “Umm.. Mom.. I know it’s going to come as a shock but I’m.. I’m Gay.”
Mom: “Good for you. One should always be happy and gay. Now, about this boy..”
Girl: “Mom.. Gay as in Lesbian”
Mom: “Right.. Now I’m thinking we should invite them for tea”
Girl: “Mom.. I can’t meet this boy. I like girls”
Mom: “Don’t be silly.. How does that affect meeting boys? Everyone likes girls. Now Mrs X was telling me this family… “
Girl(Clearly annoyed by now): “Like girls as in Sex with them”
Mom(Finally Shocked): “Who told you about sex? It’s forbidden. Good Girls don’t talk in this way. I told your father we should’ve gotten you married long ago. Now, I’m inviting this family for tea this weekend. Better be ready”
Have you ever noticed..
June 18th, 2009 § 2 Comments
.. that when you are feeling down, whole universe transpires to get you even more down…
Somebody somewhere looks at you and say “Oh, just 1 bad news! Nah, not enough.. Should ply her with some more stuff to be upset about..”
Well.. fair enough.. I must’ve done something to deserve it.. Just can’t wait for this month to end.. maybe next one will be better..
I can’t get this out of my head..
June 17th, 2009 § 4 Comments
Seasons Of Love lyrics
Rent Soundtrack
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure? measure a year
in daylights,
in sunsets,
in midnights,
in cups of coffee,
in inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife
in five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in a life?
How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure In Love
Seasons Of Love
Seasons Of Love
(female soloist)
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty five thousand journeys to plan
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a life of a woman or a man
(male soloist)
in truths that she learned
or in times that she cried
in bridges he burned
or the way that she died
(all)
Its time now to sing out though
the story never ends
Let’s celebrate remember a year in a life
of friends
Remember the love…
(oh you gotta remember the love)
Remember the love…
(oh yeah, its a gift from up above)
Remember the love…
(sing out, give out, measure your life in looooooove…!!!)
Seasons Of Love
Seasons Of Love
Part 2
In Diapers – Report Cards
In Spoke Wheels – In Speeding Tickets
In Contracts – Dollars
In Funerals – In Births
In – Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Figure
A Last Year On Earth?
Figure In Love
Figure In Love
Figure In Love
Measure In Love
Seasons Of Love
Seasons Of Love
Btw, Movie is equally great.
Only in India..
June 17th, 2009 § 3 Comments
..you would see two auto-rickshaw drivers holding a conversation while driving in two different lanes, oblivious to the vehicles behind them.
I can so relate to this..
June 16th, 2009 § Leave a Comment
This literally reminded me of a conversation I had yesterday.
Someone I barely know called me up, at work, to tell me not to feel bad and then continued to tell me the reasons, which made me feel even worse. There was stuff I wasn’t even thinking of. Talk about rubbing salt in wound.
Just Another Day, and another heart
June 16th, 2009 § 2 Comments
It was just another day in busy market. She looked at the world outside, her nose pressed at the window.
“When would I get to go out and play with other kids?”, she asked to the one they called Grandma.
“You ask me this question every day. You have to wait for your little girl, the one who’ll want you and take you home with her”, replied Grandma.
“We are not fancy enough. No kid wants to play with us anymore. They all want those glittering new models.”, a voice came from behind.
Tears swelled in her eyes. “Is it true, Grandma?”
“No, darling. Every doll gets her home. You just have to be patience” Grandma consoled her, But grandma knew it won’t happen. There were so many around with same dream. Dream of family and love.
“Mommy, I want that doll.” One sentence diverted everyone’s attention to the little girl who was reaching towards something.
“Please god, let it be me.” she prayed, eyes closed. She felt being moved. Her eyes opened up to find herself in little girl’s arms.
“You are so pretty. You can come to my home. I’ll ask Mommy to take you with us”, girl was cooing to her. She had found her home. She looked around with proud smile. Grandma was smiling and so were other dolls.
“No. We are not buying this rag-doll. come on, I’ll get you other one.”, Girl’s mother voice boomed.
“Noooo. I want this one.”, Girl refused to let her go. She was terrified. Is happiness so short-lived? Girl turned to her and said “Don’t worry. I’ll take you home. No other doll will do.”
“Come on, Let’s go. We’ll discuss it at home. Why don’t you think about it some more?”, Mother started walking out.
Little girl looked at her with tearful eyes and whispered, “I love you. I’ll take you home tomorrow. wait for me”
And they were gone. She was still here, still alone.
“She said she’ll come. She loves me.” she consoled herself.
Next morning came, and so did little girl. “Mommy says we need to see if our doll house matches you. I’m sure it does. My mommy always get me what I want”
She was scared.
“Take me home with you now.”, she wanted to scream. “Don’t leave me. I don’t want doll house. Your mother doesn’t like me”. But little girl couldn’t hear her. Little girl was happy that her mother has listened to her. Little girl didn’t realize it was adult way of getting things done without any argument.
Mother picked her up and moved over to doll house shelf.
Little girl exclaimed, “Mommy, she looks perfect”
“Sweetie, Look how uncomfortable she looks. She won’t be happy in our home. Look she doesn’t fit in.”
“But Mommy”
“Darlin’ You promised to listen”
“Yes, Mommy”
Little girl with a longing look walked out, whispering “Atleast Mommy had a look. She gave it a fair chance”
She cried and screamed. But little girl couldn’t hear her. Little girl couldn’t see the tears or hear the words screaming “I Love You”. Little girl just walked out.
And little girl never learned the truth or the lesson “When people say No, they stick to it. They are just good in covering up with rose-tinted glasses.”
Sometimes it’s just hard to..
June 15th, 2009 § 2 Comments
..convert things in your head to words on paper..
It’s been a stressful week.. And I think it’s going to stay like this for a while..
Good thing about this is I’m sleeping late and getting up early.. which means I’m getting loads done..
My appetite is gone.. So now I don’t have to diet. And I think I should be back to my thinner side within a week.
I’m bit disappointed in people. But then again I always expect people to behave morally.
I’m more mad at myself. I believed in words and someone against my better judgment.
I’m ready for a break. I think I need to get away for a while.
So if you don’t see me on facebook, twitter or here for a while.. don’t worry.. I’m just taking a little sabbatical.
Update your bookmarks..
June 14th, 2009 § 2 Comments
I’m now on http://extremeconflicts.me/
So cool.. right?
Well.. I don’t have much time to design my own site yet.. So for time being, I’ll stick to current thing.
WordPress Rocks
June 1st, 2009 § Leave a Comment
Just testing out new feature of posting via e-mails..
This is going to heaven sent esp. for my tendencies of writing down all my thoughts on email and pasting them later to blog..
It’s like they heard me cursing when my copy-paste to blog went wrong..
Edit: So, its not fully there yet. My signature was posted as well.. which means I would have to manually remove them each time.. Anywayz I can live with that