All I have is a Dream..

Restless. Tired. Anxious.
As if I’m meant to be somewhere else. If only someone somewhere would give me a sign.
Only if there was a test you could take in life, which will tell you if you are in right place or not.
If Only.

I started with my book. First chapter is almost done. And I can’t think of second one. But I’m happy that I started atleast. And re-reading it makes me proud. Hardly anyone will see it. Few would know about it. If I had a month or two, I might just even get around to finishing it. Of course I would have to come up with a real plot before it. But whatever, I got around to jotting something down, it’s more than enough for now.
I’m making few other changes in life as well. Like Work balance. Instead of getting in late and staying late at work. I’m now trying to get in on time and leave on time. Which also means I’m trying to give up my bad habit of sleeping til late in mornings. I’m still not rising at 6, well, maybe one day I’ll.
I’m also seriously considering all the proposals my parents send my way. Not that I like any of those, but the fact I’m considering marrying is a big big change. And it’s serious this time. Yes, I said so before and then I freaked out. But I’m staying put now. So all of you eligible guys, contact me
And of course, Ignoring annoying people at work continues.

Life’s good. can be better. But still good

Everytime I come back from a vacation, I’m either against relationships or wishing for them. When I see annoying couples around me, the ones where one person can’t do anything because other doesn’t want to or like to, I get depressed. I realize I can never be in one of those relationships. I need my space.
Then at times, I meet these awesome couples, the ones who have learned to be friends and understand each other. These people make me wistful and more aware that I’m not just alone, might stay alone for a long long time.
I think I need to go out and have some fun til this wistful feeling goes away

I’ve been meaning to write a post from a long time, but somehow I’ve not been able to finish even a single one.
Anywayz, It’s time to be restless again.
Most of my friends are either leaving city or have already left. It’s depressing. Esp, for my company. So many resignations can’t be good. But then again, new campus hires are cheap. Or maybe we just don’t value employees anymore. It’s sad to see things changing so fast. I recently finished 4 yrs here. (Thank you, thank you). In Indian IT industry, that’s considered long. Most of my friends want me to switch. Maybe I’ll. Maybe I’ll not. Let’s see how things work out.
Problem is I still don’t know what I want to do.

Good Thing is I’m off to Bali next month. G is finally getting married.. Yayyy.. We’ll meet after almost 3 years. Me, G and H. Good Old times. Yayyy.

Bad thing is it’s only for a week.

Worse thing is I’ve been sick for almost a month now. Keeping my fingers crossed that I’ll be better soon.

I really want to spend a year or so traveling..
I want to spend time with my camera and learn to use it..
I want to finish all those novels lying around my house..
I want to watch all the movies in my list..
I want to learn scuba-dive..
Most of all, I want to let go of negativity and few people as well

Unfortunately, everything seems to be on hold… Lets hope I can devote some time to myself and do things that I love and have a productive year

.. for all the complaints at work, well, I got promoted.
And the good part was My manager acknowledged even the tiny things that I had done for my project. Nice, and here I thought, nobody noticed.
Apart from that I’ve officially cleared my current french level. So now, instead of beginners, I’m in Waystage level. Btw, did I mention, due to backache, I had left one major question in exam. Even then, did good. yayy me.
Apart from that, did get some time to do bit shopping, but not enough time. I do need some me time. Let’s hope I do get some this week.

Ah yes, more and more friends are becoming parents now. So looks like, I’ll need to find some new friends soon.

And yes, Happy Valentine’s Day. I’ll be spending it with french text books. Hope you have a better time.

In Hindi, we have a saying which means that when God Provides, He/She provides in abundance. Well, I can’t say if that’s true for good things, but it’s certainly true for Bad things… One thing after another.
It’s been a bad bad start of the year. And I’m already fed up. Seriously One more thing which goes wrong and I’ll quit everything and sit at home.
Lets see.. Home front’s been just ok. Could be better if lectures about marriage stop.
Haven’t had time any time to meet friends or catch up with them .
Work’s been pain and so not motivating. I don’t feel very productive and unfortunately my manager agrees.
One more close friend moved away.
And now to top it all, my back gave up. Can hardly sit.. yet I’m writing this from work.

All I wanna do is have some fun… Break, break, where art thou?

OMG.. This was in drafts folder for so long that I should die in shame.. but never mind. Better late than Never

Thanks Naarya for the lovely Stamp

These stamps come with a tag and here it is…

1. Where is your cell phone: On my desk

2. Your hair: Black with faded highlights

3. Your mother: is awesome

4. Your father: is too adorable

5. Your favorite food: Cheesecakes, tiramisu, ice-cream.. just about any dessert and kadi-chawal (like any true blood north-Indian)

6. Your dream last night: It was weird. And I cant recall it now.

7. Your favorite drink: coffee

8. Your dream/goal: Running a restaurant/bookshop/school

9. What room are you in: haa… it’s a cube

10. Your hobby: Reading, Embroidery, Music, Dancing, Movies, n more n more

11. Your fear: Hmmm.. Horror Movies.. still cant watch them

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years: Relaxing on a Beach

13. Where were you last night: Home

14. Something you aren’t: Dishonest

15. Muffins: Blueberry

16. Wish list item: ummm.. Nikon D90, Big screen Plasma.. and few girly items like perfumes, cosmetics, shoes, bags

17. Where did you grow up: Delhi

18. Last thing you did: had coffee with a friend

19. What are you wearing: Jeans and Sweat shirt

20. Your TV: Off

21. Your pets: None

22. Your friends: are best people I know of

23. Your life: seems to be stalling

24. Your mood: not so down, not so up

25. Missing someone: Yes. My best friend.

26. Vehicle: Yup.

27. Something you’re not wearing: makeup

28. Your favorite store: Body Shop

29. Your favorite color (s): White

30. When was the last time you laughed: Just now with my friend

31. Last time you cried: ummm… just last week.. while watching a movie

32. Your best friend: quite a few.. H n H are totally on top

33. One place that I go over and over: Goa

34. One person who emails me regularly: more than 1 actually.. G comes first to mind

35. Favorite place to eat: There’s this cafe in Goa.. cant’ remember its name.. but yum food

Another year gone by..
Another set of resolution wasted..
Another year to look forward to..

Let’s hope this year is better.
Umm.. No, Let’s hope I’ll be a better person this year, better friend, better daughter, better sister.. Just Better Me.

Office is depressive these days with all the hiring and firing that is going on..
I cleared my French level A1 with flying colors.. Alliance as usual was fun, met really nice ppl..
Wedding season is on.. So it’s back to attend weddings and answer queries on why I’m still unmarried..

Can’t wait for next vacation..