I just won..
April 17th, 2009 § 2 Comments
When did I turn into this person? And how can I be so oblivious to someone else’s feelings? Why did I let things get this far?
So today is the day I spend wallowing in Guilt Trips.. Meanie Meanie Me…
Sorry, You are slightly fat to be loved by my standards…
April 16th, 2009 § 6 Comments
Recently I met this girl, extremely fun, intelligent n pretty as well. In fact, not even for once I wondered about her weight or looks. She mentioned she was just getting over this long-term relationship which recently ended. I didn’t bother to ask why they broke up and all. Well, I really don’t care about that and I had just met her, right. So, we hung around, had fun, said goodbyes, only to keep in touch via numerous social networking sites. So I saw her blog link and knowing her as little as I did, I was sure it would be a good read. In one of her posts, she mentioned the reason for break up.
And guess the reason, Guy wanted her to lose weight so she would become perfect.
Excuse me, wasn’t love supposed to make you perfect? Or was it that love overcomes all imperfection?
This girl doesn’t even qualify as fat. At max, she can enter the slightly plump round. And considering, it’s India, I would say thats the average figure, curvy & voluptuous.
Most importantly, since when weight is a criteria for marriage?
A funny, smart, beautiful girl needs to lose weight, so she can get married to the guy she’s in love with. Guy who professes his love every day. But he just thinks she can be perfect only after shedding those extra Kilos.
She took the right way and showed him the highway. (nice rhyme 
)
But not without the hurt and pain which comes after broken heart.
It hurts to see physical attribute coming in way of love. I thought Love was supposed to be above that. Atleast that’s what all quotes seem to say.
But if I just consider the romance on tv and novels, it’s always between good looking people. So yeah, maybe love is directly tied to your looks and weight.
You know you are gone when..
April 6th, 2009 § 2 Comments
..you end up sharing your deep dark desires with someone you barely know..
..you envision your wedding and discuss unrealistic plans..
..you end detailing your dream wedding dress..
..you ignore every other conversation around you to focus on this one..
..you write silly blog posts like this..
So here’s another silly bit.. Few weeks back I met these 2 really old individuals who took an instant liking to me. And they were just adorable. I had some of the best conversations with them. They said in hindi “Bilkul apni si lagti hai.. jaise bahut saalon se jante hai tujhe” meaning “it feels like you are ours.. like we have known you for a lot of years”
You think that happens with people your age too… ??
PS: I can just imagine someone reading and chuckling over it with a comment “you still can’t be stressing about it” So, No, I’m not stressing over it anymore.. Just trying to figure it out..
Umm.. Just A minute.. What was that?
March 31st, 2009 § 2 Comments
Funny thing happened today.. I found myself apologizing for something I didn’t do and had no control either.. And then I realized I’ve been doing it for quite sometime.. And only with my friends..
Well.. What’s been happening is.. If I get something that my friends wanted (nice date, shoes, dress.. ) I find myself trying to play it down, make it sound like it was just circumstantial and had they been in my place, they would have gotten it as well.. Basically just feel guilty.
And today I did that ‘coz I got few more invites than them.. Now why should I do that? I’ve never asked for attention.. I might brag at times (ok, more than few times) about the treatment I get at my regular haunts.. But I know the reason for that.. I took time out to remember their names.. greet them nicely.. and smile with them often.. I just try to be what my parents taught me to be.. Be Nice to everyone regardless of their station..
Why should I apologize for the preferences I get then?
If two of us met a guy and he asks me out rather than you, How is it my fault? It’s not as if I took my shirt in front of him or offered to give him a lap dance… (atleast not when you were standing next to me 
)
I’m sorry but I’m done apologizing for things I didn’t do. If you are jealous or you think I don’t deserve it, it’s your problem not mine. Just because we are friends, you don’t get away with it.
Sigh.. Things were so much simple when all I had was guy friends.. They never got jealous, well mostly
Is it Age?
March 25th, 2009 § 6 Comments
Somehow I’m more intolerant of people now.. Their indecisiveness, which never bothered me before, now gets on my nerves.. Maybe the Older you get, expectations from people around you increase..
I should tone it down somehow or I might find myself friendless one day
Some people deserve to be hanged..
March 19th, 2009 § 4 Comments
I can’t believe how degenerate or morally blank people be? Morally Blank, because even a person with an ounce of moral couldn’t consider this.
Mother and father are equated to Gods in our culture. And for good reason. For they give you life and make you the person you are. To abuse such a relationship, It’s just sad, pathetic and disgusting.
First Dungeon dad, now this. I hope no other daughter or son are suffering like this or suffer ever.
Girl, You’ll be a Woman Soon
March 19th, 2009 § 2 Comments
When Neil Diamond wrote it, Did he had any idea about female psyche or Was he just trying to pretend he understands us??
I would forever stay a girl, but have to be woman at times.. And it seems its finally time to grow up..
‘Resistance is futile’, so said Borg. And, unfortunately for me, my parents and friends are on same page.
It’s part of being Indian. There are set of goals that each of us is supposed to achieve. Some are lucky enough to escape the clutches of tradition but most of us end up surrendering.
When you are a baby, your aim is to be the best baby. The one who cries less, one who walks first, one who learn to speak first. From there on, aims increase gradually.
You have learn rhymes before the next door kid.
You have get admission in a better school.
You have to get better marks.
You have to 90% scorer in 10th Boards.
You have to choose subjects which have future.
Then, you again have to score 90% in 12th Boards. (the more you can achieve, the better it is for parents)
After that, you have to choose a career which has a bright future (If you chose science, then it means engineering or medicine)
So now you have to get a Degree
Once Degree goal is achieved, lets head to Job Market.
Once that is achieved, Opt for Masters (mainly MBA) and again better be a good school
Again, get a good Job.
After this, you goal is to get married.
Of course, Achieving doesn’t stop here. This will lead to Reproduction and carrying on of Family Name. And then same process for your kids..
So our life is all about Achieving. Either our own personal goals or goals set by parents.
And 25-26 is the benchmark age for girls. Luckily, my parents understood my need to learn and live. So for 2 years, I was able to escape the never-ending pressure some of my friends faced or are facing.
However, 28 seems to my parent’s saturation point. Hence the ultimatum, either you do something about it or we’ll.
I know I can still avoid it for another yr. And trust me, I’ll still manage it. But my mom’s sad face. Her trying to explain my stance to relatives. Her trying to argue with others why I’m still right even though she doesn’t agree. My Dad’s plans and then letting go of them for me. I can’t fight it anymore. So this is their achiever’s goal. And somehow I feel I owe it to them.
That’s why it is the solution for now. Rest, it’s going to be a fun ride.. It already is.
I’m getting Inspired…
February 26th, 2009 § 10 Comments
..By random tweets I see and blogs that I read.. Sometimes they do make sense.. Not like the ones where you think you can fly like superman.. Or that Nobody noticed when you fell off your chair in a bar (*after 1 drink).. The ones which *Actually* make sense..
So here’s my new life plan..
* Stop doing things that I don’t like – This includes work, meeting people, eating bad food, smiling at people I hate
* No Whining – Yeah, So I didn’t get the raise I wanted.. So my parents never took me to Disneyland.. My boyfriend cheated on me.. Whatever.. Just Get over it..
* Take Charge – So no more sitting around and complaining about things not working out.. So If I want something done, I’ll go and get it…
* Get My Priorities right – No more focusing on things which don’t matter in long run includes petty office politics..
* Get My Finances Straight – No more holidays or shopping till all bills and debts are paid off.. Includes family loans
* Be a better Human Being – I don’t care if that’s being idealist, but I think I want to concentrate more on content life than corporate.. So don’t be surprised if down the line, I quit IT to move into social sector.. not yet though.. too many bills to clear
falling out of love is not painless
January 19th, 2009 § Leave a Comment
Why O Why, we fall out of love?
How can I be the one to break your heart?
After all we’ve been through,
It’s over, How do I tell you.
Oh, I loved you Darlin’, I still Do.
I’m so sorry that I hurt you.. 
Another Year Gone…
December 17th, 2008 § 4 Comments
Older, but still not wiser…
Me thinks this is last celebration.. From now on, I’m forever in 20s… Age Freeze..
Its been an odd day..
Some friends were missed a lot,
Some surprised me with another side..
Some reminded me of old hurts
Some of new joys..
Its been an odd year too..
Some people were missed..
Family is even closer than before..
I understand finances better and my debts
I discovered new authors who continue to be awesome..
I saw more movies than ever..
I made some nice new friends..
I almost fell for someone but it wasn’t meant to be..
I realized old chemistries are just old now..
I think I’m a misfit yet I manage to fit in somehow..
I made some decisions which will pay off in long run I hope..
Everyone I know is either married or getting married..
Married ones are busy having babies or planning for babies..
I realized there are some games I just can’t play.. whether it’s about politics at work or games in love..
Overall.. it was ok year.. Lets see how next ones goes…
